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woot for me!!! found one clip so far.. Knots landing: Breach of Faith http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2c1xTZo8BPM be back with more KL: remember the good times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jDsZzZzJa_c

ARRRRGH!!!! Ok, I'm strictly venting at this point. I want people to completely but out of my future plans unless I have asked for it. Not that I don't value their opinions but it does nothing but make the decision making process harder. I was fine with the whole grad school for EDU thing. I am fairly certain i would have been some form of settling but I was ok with that for now b/c it A) is something I eventually want to do anyway (probably when I settle down for good) and it will be a paying job, unlike this garbage I have now that gets me nothing but my loans which is fine unless something happens like, oh I don't know, I need a new computer. I absolutely want to teach. My problem is that I donly want to do it right NOW b/c I could potentially get all my kids from work, who I would love to have. Aside from that there would be know rush. I know I would adore all the kids I get, but I don't know them yet so it doesn't hurt if I don't have them yet, right?! My problem with the teaching thing is that I know once I do it I won't really change it or I would get sick of it and burnt out and not be very nmuch good to them anyway. I would never get to try all the other things I want to do. I know the stage fright thing is a big problem but, while I would be happy teaching for the rest of my life, I would feel like I missed out and I'd regret not trying todo something in that field. However if I tried it and failed or I didn't enjoy it I could go back. Or if I tried it and succeeded I would be fine with not being a teacher. Here is my big dilemy with the stage fright thing. First of all, I have most of it b/c, as dramatic as my family is, being the first born I didn't have that. I was the one who was, while not embarrased by much, was very much so by doing anything in front of people b/c it scared the crap out of me. Then I get got teased by all the sisters (little blackhearted devils) so I wouldn't even try letb alone say that that's what I wanted to do. What it's done is it has caused me to create reasons not to try it. I have become quite good at that actually. I have gottent o the point that I believe the reasons and now it very very hard to ignore it without feeling guilty. I have convinced myself that it is a very selfish career choice. By that I mean that it is not something that has any kind of benefit to anyone but myself. I won't be doing any good, I won't make the world a better place, I won't do anything but make myself happy with that. It's not going to change anyone's life. I could be a teacher and do the exact opposite. Everything else I have wanted to do in my life has had some form of "for the greater good" thing going with it. I was going to (and am trying) start a foundation for diabetes. It is not really along the lines of donations and cures, though I'd take what I can get, but there has to be a way to recycle what has not been used. I get how many $s worth of supplies that I can't use but it costs so much and so few have insurance that why can't they use mine? Really quick summation of that, but there it is. Anyway, it's all been along those line, so it is very hard to want to do something that is ENTIREly selfserving and not feel guilty about it. I can talk myself into doing it but I just keep feeling bad about it. I need to get over that crap but it's hard to do when I have one giving me the speech about how I need to go back to schoool as soon asd I can so it'll be free and I don't have to worry about that or insurance and the other is telling me to do what I want to do, coming up with a whole plan (phD, teach/study abroad learna language, write a book while I'm there and come back here with my degree and earn more right off the bat) which seems great and a lot of fun, but still not exactly what I want right now. Plus he still doesn't get the I have no money thing. I need to come out of school and not be that much further in the whole than I am right now b/c I won't get back out of it. That's why I applied for one of the jobs I found in NYC. It's be getting $80,000 a year at the entry level but it's a very very very slim chance at that. However if I did that I'd be ok for all the other areas I would be worried about and then be able to take an acting class (hopefully one on one) or find some way to learn a little more. PLus I'd be able to offord to go to India and to my cousin's wedding. What the hell!!!!! Why can't people just stay out of it and let me decide. Ok, done with venting.. for now at least. Later all. crossing my fingers for those jobs b/c I NEED it

Ya know what else I/m looking for now... The knots landing clips. The second season just became available on dvd so it should be up at some point. Otherwise I'm heading to blockbuster at some point. I won't be able to post anything but if I get a new comp I'll get them up with the programs. So I just got messaged on facebook. My cousin that I had told you about who lives and works in Pakistan but is from france is getting married in the summer and invited me to the wedding in france!! PROBABLY won't happen, but still, it was sweet anyway. Kinda bummed though

I know I asked already but can someone tell me what clip it was on youtube (if you know what it's called it'd be great) with the sex maniac line cuz I think it sounds hilarious and I want to see it. I am online right now looking at computers to buy b/c I think mine has bit the dust. I can't get it to do anything right now. I am trying to get it back up enough that I can at last burn all my photos and songs that aren't already on a disk onto one. Otherwise I've lost everything. I have to call and see how much it'll be to get it fixed otherwise it's out. I show no loyalty I tell ya. Actually not so, I feel bad scrapping it b/c my fam got it for me when I went to school so I'd feel guitly, even though I went to school 5-6 years ago and that means this is way outdated and majorly infected with everything it can be. Looks like it'll be gone, so like I said b4 I'll need to replace everything on there from you guys. Plus side is most of the things I've seen have a dvd burner in it so I can burn the vids to a disk right away. Right now I have a dvd burner program that they added last time I got it fixed but I don't actually have a burner that is compatible. Later all. I still can't get over the NYs epi... good thing it's on again tomorrow!

I knew that, I was just kidding, but that's exactly what I meant, she did have one (farce or not) but it was nothing like any other character ever did

If we want to get technical... she was kidnapped, but she turned it around on them and it ended up more funny scenes. I'm sure it was supposed to be that way and not a serious "omg, what could happen" kind of thing but she still was kidnapped. I've been a little slow in replying b/c the fam is still over but loving all the stories and lips!! I have read the fics but I haven't watched all the scenes. I did download them though so I'll od that as soon as everyone is gone cuz the comp is in the living room. PS, my computer is crapping out b/c I got some virus through facebook (pain in the arse if you ask me) so I may have to get everything fixed, in which case I'll lose everything, including all my music on itunes, all my clips and vids and anything else that may have been fun to have so I may be hitting everyone up for some... sorry in advance! As for school.... I'm now asking for opinions. My uncle suggested I look into a doctorate instead of my masters b/c it will open a lot more doors and I can do it right away, I won't need to get my MA first. He also said I should be able to apply to anywhere I'd want b/c they don't look so much at grades from my undergrad as much as my ideas for a disertation and my studies while in the program. My grades weren't bad, but being an art major and that it is such a subjective thing they were not as good as they should be to get into certain grad schools. Does anyone know if this is true b/c everywhere I'd looked into does need a masters first but I may just not be looking in the right places. Harvard (which was not a serious look unless it is possible to get there based on my ideas) is the only school I saw that allows you in without another degree past undergrad. There has to be csome but I was wondering if anyone knows of any b/c I'm a bit at a loss. Even NYU or Columbia and UConn said I need one. Ok, that's all for now.

needless to say.... I think that new years kiss was added to and topping the list of nominees for the years

Hey all, I only have 2 minutes while the boys are outside playing... First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! next-- what clip is that?!?!?!?!?!? I'm sure I'll find it sometime but I have never seen that! Last, quick updates... not totally sure but I am still applying to the masters program I was looking at but I may look into a doctorate.Evidently I don't have to get a masters first, which I thought you did, and it will open more doors for me I think. And as for my travels I am now going to India over the summer. My aunt and Uncle are getting the little girl they are adopting. It's not definate, but it is as close as it can get to that right now. If my uncle doesn't go my Aunt definately is and she asked my to go with her to get her. IT's a little girl named Komal (I think) and she will be about 18 months to 2 years then. Psyched that I get to go, of course, but so much more psyched that I am going when she picks her up that's it for now like I said... HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!!

OMG I am sooo happy with this!!!! I watched live cuz I'm off this week. It went along as usual and I liked it but I had a feeling I liked it just because it was them and not b/c it was actually that great (now as I duck all the flying garbage and tomatoes please let me finish the though). I thought maybe it was b/c I had just expected so much more from today.... I went back and forth... then the last 2 scenes came and I am just soooooo damned stunned. They were so very much better than any other story on todays epi. Wasn't a fan of the makeup, I just thought it was a bit too much or too harsh on her, but aside from that (I had to find something to critique I guess)... it was spec-freakin-tacular!!!! OMG... too good for words. I have to go back now and watch it a few dozen more times... goodnight all. Have a godo NEw Year everyone, the cousins are still in for a few days so I don't think I'll get on tomorrow night. It's kind of a once (for only a few minutes) every few days thing

first of all... oh, if wishing made it so....... I SOOOOO love this idea. I've wanted him to see someone else as a serious threat since Robert came back and was flirting with her around Justus' funeral, and then when Scotty came back on. Man oh man do I want that!!! And next... Happy Holidays to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 I know I am a little late on that, but better late than never. I haven't been on for a while and I've been a bit busy with holiday and family stuff so I am saying it now. I hope everyone had a great time! And on the school front... First off I applied to two other jobs, both in NY. I am just kind of curious to see if they'll call me but they are definately interesting. One is in TV, it's entry level learning the business, I would be working in all areas so it sounded kind of cool. I thought it would at least let me get a feel of how it works if i am ever going to get over my stage fright and try for it. The other is an entry level at a fashion house, which I wouldn't want to do forever, but for now I think it sounds REALLY fun and interesting (and for an entry level it pays 80,000 a year so that's always good since my loans are more than many mortgages). Now onto school. If I don't get either of those, which I don't think I will, I am definately applying for next fall. I have a guy who goes to the bank who always asks me about school b/c he knows I was going to go back and he works in the department I want in the school I was looking at. He was asking again today and he was filling me in. he said "so there are a few things... first, I'll end up your supervisor. Next give me your last name, I'm going to get in touch with Mr. M who will be involved with the acceptances. He is the husband of one of my old teachers so he said I'm basically in. He was telling me about how the program runs and what I have to do to go fo free. I knew this b/c I found out at that meeting but he didn't know that. Anyway, If he is he my supervisor and he's having a sitdown with Mr M I don't think I'll have a prblem getting in. I just have to get all my stuff together... and wait to hear from these jobs but I don't have to apply till may at the latest

So how cute is this woman?!! I have this adorable older woman who comes to the bank. Confidentiality and bla bla... she's my little italian lady (that's what I call her at home and for purposes of this story I guess). She's from Naples and has the cutest accent ever. She just took her grandkids there a few months ago and we were talking about it b/c that's where part of my family is from. Anyway, she started coming not long after I was hired at the bank and she has only ever come to me. She brings me something everytime she comes, flowers one time, cookies another and she bought me a little handbag when she went home a few months ago. I joke about her b/c she used to come in and deposit $3000 in quarters everytime she came so we'd have to bag all that up (each bag weighs 50 lbs and there are at least 3) but I love her anyway. I was just saying yesteray that I missed her, I haven't seen her since this summer when she got back from Naples. Ironically she came in today. I had gone on my break and she must have come right when I left b/c she was waiting the whole time. I walked in and got excited b/c I hadn't seen her. She jumped and and said "HI! I was waiting for you... and eating all your cookies!! I don't have any bank business today so I just came to visit" She came in just to bring me a Christmas present! Everyone usually brings something for everyone as a group. She skipped them I guess, well, she brought snacks for everyone but she gave me an angel ornament and a bottle of perfume! She's so damned cute!! Ok, that's the extent of my bank Christmas stories... not very many but it's still cute to me... Not sure how I feel about todays. I didn't dislike it entirely I was just a little indifferent... It was ok but it did nothing for me. 2 snap shot scenes don't cut it. I hope tomorrow's is better... if not I'll be waiting with baited breath for next weeks'.... Gonna love that!!!! Night all.

I love that you said that. Everyone usually thinks I'm crazy when I say I can smell the snow!

So love that article! And now that there was no Tracy today and, therefore, no tracy to talk about... on to RL talk... not much there either but I have my meeting with the UNH edu guy in 1 hour. Can't wait to see what I have to do for all this. My cousin has basically had everything fall into her lap. She works like hell for all of it but A LOT has been luck. She grew up in Jersey, went to UMASS for business marketing, interned and them worked for Roberto Cavalli and Ralph Lauren, the NY Knicks. She decided she wanted to go back to school for nutrician so she is now going to Columbia. She takes interent courses and only has to go to class once a month, the last semestre she had to go once a week. How the hell is it that all this happen for her. I do love her, she's my fave cousin ever and one of my best friends but come the h-ll on!!! I have to go crazy just to get a job that will pay my insurance and pay enough to pay my loan back (still working on that enough thing)

Hey everyone, I haven't checked in (not that much has happened that we didn't know was coming), but I was in NY today. My mom had a trip through her school for the faculty. They went for next to nothing with one guest so we went. Made a killing on purses... OMG!! We came home with, I want to say, 6 bags, 4 or 5 scarves and a bracelet. We did the whole "back-room" thing and got some very nice bags. Did china town, which this was the firsat time I actually had a good time in that section, little Italy (which I always like), and all down 5th ave. I'm beat now but I just wanted to check in. I am off of work Monday... I feel a cough coming on... (cough cough, can't you tell?) I have a meeting with a man from UNH abut the education program Monday night so I took one of my sick day for that. As far as I know if I get in I have to work for a school (the one I went to so that's always fun) and the school will pay for my ed at UNH. All I have to pay is 4000 at the end. If I am working in a school at all I can apply to work with the people to people program which is the student ambassador program I was a part of in school. It means I get to be a chaperone for any of their trips abroad anywhere. I have a friend of the family who is a teacher and goes with them so I am going to check with him for what I can do. One step closer to being a little bit out of the hole. I can have my insurence entirely paid for, a decent (?) paycheck, don't have rent, my loan will be put off till I am done with school... again, AND I'll hopefully get to travel. Who's better than me?! Talk to you all later edit- oh yeah... got a coat too

ditto... but I wonder, even though we all were thinking it was going to be something else even if we didn't know what, if the secret that Luke uncovers is that she didn't really divorce him. They do tend to make a spoiler out of the least significant scene of the week. And that's all from me... the very optimistic fan

I have to say, I did like this part but here's what i didn't like about it... Now Luke doesn't think he has to work at all. Knowing she hasn't given up and gotten the divorce just means he's already ahead of the game. Here's what I loved... they broke a hammoc (sp?) in the boat house?!!!

Bite your tongue!!! I think it means (I know but it's me so this is what you get) that the Q's are leaving, sursprise surprise, save one member is Tracy. She and Luke will be back together but the reunion they mentioned will me Anna and Robert. They aren't on much but we know they are coming back at least for a bit so maybe that's it, especially after his near death, don't they usually bring people together then? oh yeah, and that other post I had, I meant i DID understand what they meant. I was typing to fast and didn't see I put the n't... not that that matters

Bite your tongue!!! I think it means (I know but it's me so this is what you get) that the Q's are leaving, sursprise surprise, save one member is Tracy. She and Luke will be back together but the reunion they mentioned will me Anna and Robert. They aren't on much but we know they are coming back at least for a bit so maybe that's it, especially after his near death, don't they usually bring people together then? oh yeah, and that other post I had, I meant i DID understand what they meant. I was typing to fast and didn't see I put the n't... not that that matters

no, I didn't really understand where they were going with it, my point was that it was just VERY loose. I think i'm done with the comparisons. I saw the one about Sonny and Claudia too... might have been on here. I also saw that MW said that Kate could be the next Tracy in that interview she did. I think that was wishful thinking on her part b/c even if the character COULD be MW could never pull off Tracy-esque. Olivia would be the closest in my opinion, but that's just me

wait, did I miss something in all the other spoilers or doesn't this contradict everything we've been told so far? I know the whole grain of salt routine but I was pretty sure they were supposed to be back or at least close to back by christmas. and doesn't the liz/jason comparison put a damper on the getting back together and married "for real" story arc? Part b of that question... were exactly is the comparison between them and Liz/Jason or Maxie/Spinelli? I get the we shouldn't be together/let's fight it bull but they are in a COMPLETELY different situation. Liz should stay the hell away from Jason b/c of her but that keeps her kids from being shot in the head like a certain other redheaded vegetable (sorry if that was a little cold but whatever). She knows it but she is just as dumb as a g-d damned post and doesn't want to stay away. That's selfish as hell. Tracy has put up with way too much crap in her marriage (let alone her life with every other man she's been with), she is making a decision for self preservation's sake. She has decided on something that she doesn't want to do but believes is the right thing. He won't let her go b/c he is madly in love with her, no matter what he is or is not willing to say. He is trying to save a marriage for the sake of both of them and she is trying to do what she thinks is best... but that in no way is like L/J, or M/S for that matter, who she tries to keep as a friend b/c she doesn't want to lose him as a friend, but there is no good/ bad fight to either side in that case so there are a whole different animal. I think that was one big long run-on sentence so I'll be done with it, go do some writing and try to distract my mind from trying to figure out that whole twisted ven-diagram they have created for us b/c I don't see where any of them cross, I just see three different circles (2 smaller and less important than the other) floating in space night all

everyone pause for the dramatic tear.... (crickets)... Remos, a girl after my own heart. Way to look on the sunny side of the street!!! Ms Q- Loved those speeches. The last two were my faves of those choices but I think the second would get the vote. Do you remember what epi that was from (you must sinces you quotes it word for word) I can see it vaguely in my head but I don't know when it was

I'm still going with the thought that we have heard an equal amount spoiled about both sides, staying or going, so I listen to nothing till my girls says she's done. Positive note, did anyone realize this is the longest JE has ever stayed on the show? EVER, she usually has something like a 3 years stint, but she's been around and I thought she has always said she wants to be there now so I think we're ok (boo to all you naysayer who spout this rubbish about them offering her recurring or nothing... she should be the one saying "no, it's this, lose all the new jokers you have on salary but not on screen, have me on to save your collective asses or not at all) CARRIE-- oh my God, how's he doing, is he freaked out at all or is he ok? Hopefully it's one of those things that freaks you out b/c you know what could happen but nomatter how much a kid "knows" it it just doesn't register unless something actually happens.... if that made any sense. I know where I was going with it but not sure it translated well to print. Hope everything is alright. good night all

I agree with you on all those. I was going by epis that I remember specificall, you filled in everything I was trying to remember (can't believe I forgot the reopening!) Got on for the quotes. It's probably not great as a quot itself but it was HI-lerious when you watch the scene. When Coleman was hitting on Tracy at Jakes her response was "you're a pig, check back in an hour." and "special delivery, collect your 25 cent tip when you recycle" "when god created eve, he should have quite while he was ahead"... then on 1/2/08 "I don't want to lose you. Huh, the way you were tossing the room you'd prbably find me if you did. I'm not kidding. I want to grow old with you. Don't even think about it." may not be a great quote but watching it it was just such a great scene that it had to be mentioned. It also gets a best kiss nod as well. for best comedy... tracy and monica's fight over the shirt. sorry, I don't have specifics for very many b/c as I'm looking through them I don't have a lot of clips for this year at all. I have them on tape so I didn't download them... big mistake cuz I'm going crazy looking. If anyone could post (or repost) any it'd be much appreciated!! Sorry to have you all do this yet again. nich all, I'm sure I'll come up with more choices tomorrow

may I venture to make a few suggestions.... Best Single Episode - Drama: 4:30 Tracy, I love you... on the HS. when she told him it was over (I'm the best time you've ever had. I know, that's what makes this so damn sad). Best Single Episode - Comedy Best Single Episode - Romance when he asked her to go with him (I'm going to use this for a lot I think). When Luke was still in the hospital 1-2-08 (I think) the your heart belongs to me... I love you day, not scene in particular. Best Speech Best Sexual Innuendo Sexiest Scene :when he asks her to go with him Best Kiss: the kiss when Luke asked her to go with him on the run. 2-6-08, on the haunted star when look has returned and Tracy is living on the boat. Best Hug (um, have we even HAD a hug this year???) Best Quote Best Facial Expression: you want me to be financially dependent... I so resent that (her face when she was almost tearing at that his saying that). Best Face Touching (TL, what this your category? ) when she left him on the haunted star (yellow jacket before the kiss). Best Nickname Best Hair (this is SO my category, LOL) not many for this one, sorry. Oh yeah, anything before the cut. The day of the cut wasn't bad (a little extreme but not bad), when she was at the hospital with look, any scene. Best Outfit: the jacket that looked kind of snake skin print when Luke was in the hospital. the yellow jacket wasn't bad. whe he asked her to go with him, the leather jacket. also the long black jacket when she was drunk at jakes with Jax there (not neccessarily great but looked great on her) I'll have to come back for more

hey guys, I'm putting this up b/c I am fairly certain no one here is from Missouri. I know there isVERY little chance of the girl's family being on here, but the mother comes from MI so I didn't want to anyone to accidentally stumble across the pic (a- it's a gift they haven't gotten yet and b- I don't have their permission to put it up here... I don't really need it but I still don't like to) Anyway, as long am sure none of the fam will find and and I'll get in trouble I can post, so heres the latest. I think you can tell more on the computer than in person b/c it looks bigger in persona dn you need to hold it back a bit to see what it is but the little girl was standing outside washing her granmother's (my boss's) car. It's hadr to tell cuz it is so cropped... I'm kinda going on cuz I'm trying to kill time while I wait for it to load all the way. here you go http://www.sendspace.com/file/lgior2