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Gawd, she looked beautiful today. Natural, raw, real--just beautiful. And NOBODY told me about the jacket bit at the end of her scene with Luke. Loved it. Perfect, perfect, perfect touch. The Edward scene was too short. Cut, imho.

I had the Watching Live post open on my desktop for the entire hour--frustrating much? Of course, I felt so guilty about it, I was TWICE as productive during the hour from 3 to 4 as I usually am.

I'm dying here. As far as the posters on SZ is concerned, Jane/Tracy don't even exist. NOTHING was said of TQ/Dillon interaction, and barely nothing was said of Tracy. Please tell me I'm not going to be disappointed. WAS there an apology? And was it up to your standards, Regency?

SPOILER > > Is anyone else worried about the whole "lashing out/apologizing" and "breaking down in Edward's arms" thing today? Cuz I am. Still riding the LuNacy bus, but his apology better be DAMN STRAIGHT BETTER than his lashing out, if you know what I mean. And I really hope Edward is nice to our girl. Because I don't want to have to kill an old man off in a story. I really don't.

My avatars are cycling faster than Lance Armstrong. Hey, Rege, you can't be the angst queen! I'm the angst queen! Or at least, the angst princess. The angst duchess? Aw, tell me I at least rank the angst CBE, right? TQ on tomorrow. Angst. Much angst.

Lady Ashton, I'm loving the avatar! And welcome to the LoveFest. TracyFan, we can agree to disagree, and you can feel free to admit I'm totally right when LuNacy comes back full force. JK, kiddo--you da bomb, and you know I loves ya! ETA: WAVES TO REGENCY!

New story on LiveJournal. Photographic Memory: A random snapshot catches Laura Spencer's attention, and she puts two and two together.

In the breakroom for a little while. Sorry, ILTQ--I got a bunny, but it's not light. Sorry--angst is the word of the day, it seems. Link to Break Room: http://pub13.bravenet.com/chat/show.php/1049349012

Regency, I totally love that story. Oh, and I had missed The Die Falls completely! WOW, what a great vignette. I just adored it. I'm going to stay safe in my little LuNacy bubble. Ya'll don't have to join me, but I'm just going to LALALA my way through any negativity or bad news. Just a heads-up.

Regency, I got the "scraps" and have read through them. You are amazing. I will email you with detailed responses when I have the chance, but I think you should go ahead and post "Luke" asap. It needs nothing, and is so tender, gentle, and perfect as is that I would love for others to read it. I also would like to read more of "Forever Ours," if you're inclined to write more. It's going to be a hard week for TracyFans, no doubt. But our girl is wonderful, and we love her, and I'm pretty sure JE has re-signed. And wow--Regency has about four fics in the hopper that will just blow you guys away. We all need to resolve to get our writers' block out of the way and just flood the internet with TracyFic. Yeah. That's the ticket.

I totally want to do a LuNacy vid to this song. It's sooo appropriate. Provincetown Sung by Kathy Brier One Life, Many Voices You want to know something strange? I’m happy. You want to know something else? It’s fine. It takes some time to realize you’ve survived When all the while you thought you never should. Like someone else deserved to be The one reflecting back at me. And it’s good that we’re here tonight And it’s good that time goes by And it’s good That in spite our plans To blow us up Or tear us down We survived. There’s a moon. There is still a moon. There are birds. There will always be birds. And I’ve been given a voice and a pair of hands And the chance to feel alive in Provincetown. You want to know something deep? The ocean. You want to know something else? Your tears. It takes some time to realize you’re home When every time you turn around, you’re not. You ride the salty carousel You spin so fast it’s hard to tell And it’s good that I love so deeply. And it’s good that I feel the tide. And it’s good that in spite our fears Our names will wash away in the sand We endure. There’s a plane that brought me here. There’s a boat to take me away To a place where I will some day lie But to tell the truth I’m happy here tonight In Provincetown. In Provincetown. In Provincetown.

Look, guys. Luke and Tracy will never have the kind of relationship that Luke and Laura had. First of all, she's not an ingenue. She never will be. And he's not a hormonal 25 year old...okay, he's a lot closer to that than Tracy is to ingenue, but you get the picture. Yes, next week Luke and Laura will pledge their undying love to each other. Uh-huh. Okay. We've been saying for a long time that Luke and Tracy are going to have to end this farce of a marriage if their relationship was ever going to be "real." Did we think that ending was going to be easy? Did we think it wasn't going to involve pain and discomfort and hurt feelings on both sides? Did you think Luke's love--undying as it may be--for Laura was not going to cause friction? Fast-forward to Laura off the show. Luke is going to come down from this merry-go-round. He's going to realize what he's done. He may or may not feel (and express) guilt for the pain he caused Tracy. He may or may not try to reclaim what he had with Tracy, because it's good for him. Tracy is going to remember what he did, and how she feels. She may or may not make him pay for what he did. She may or may not force him to prove himself to her. Tracy is not a fool. She knows she will never have that dewey-eyed, riding off into the sunset in a horse-drawn carriage kind of romance with Luke. And she would have to be an idiot to think that the spectre of Laura will not always hang over her relationship with Luke. But Tracy is a realist, and she knows that Luke is more suited to her than any man she's ever loved. She also knows that time marches on, and the opportunities for either of them to find happiness are getting fewer and further between. Tracy and Luke are pragmatists. They are also broken people. Tracy will always have to deal with the fact that Laura holds an enormous place in Luke's heart. Luke will always have to deal that, no matter how much she loves him, Tracy will always be a Quartermaine first...with all the baggage that entails. Luke will never declare his undying love for Tracy, nor will she ever declare hers to him. But they can and should have a very enduring love that is both satisfying and real to them. Luke has had almost 30 years to build up the image of Laura in his mind. He hasn't had one Laura-free moment to learn his love for Tracy. The bomb has dropped. Laura knows the truth. Luke has expressed his guilt and been forgiven. Laura is leaving again, and Luke knows now that he has redeemed himself, and knows that he's not going to have another chance. When the dust clears, Luke will be bleeding, but the infection will also be cleansed and he will be able to heal. Once he has mourned, we'll have an opportunity to see what Luke can feel once he has his eyes opened, once he's moved on from his guilt, once he's decided that he's going to live again.

*scratches head* Dudes, I love ya'll, but I gotta ask--WHAT EPISODE DID YOU PEOPLE SEE? Because I just sat through Thursday's (nuff said) and Friday's episodes, and I am wondering where the hell all this is coming from? Seriously, I sat through Friday's ENTIRE episode and did not see one anti-LuNacy or anti-Tracy moment. I saw a man who loved Laura, who loved her enough to risk pain for her. Yes. Seriously. Luke. Loves. Laura. Earth to LoveFest, this is not news. He has loved Laura since 1978. This is not changing just because he has been with Tracy. The scenes were poignant, sad, and yeah--he totally expressed his grief to Laura. Why does this signal the end of LuNacy? What exactly did I miss that has all of you guys so up in arms? Did you think that, just because he has feelings for Tracy, he's going to stop having feelings for Laura? That he's going to not express them? Yes, the wedding was over the top. It was a public humiliation for Tracy, and I am furious at the Qs and Alice for their insensitivity to her. But honestly, what exactly, really guys--tell me, what EXACTLY did Luke do in Friday's episode that has everybody so furious? Because I didn't see a thing. Not one single thing. I am still on the LuNacy bus. Hell, I'm the conductor, bus driver, ticket taker, and popcorn seller for the LuNacy bus. They can totally bring this back around. Lainey, TracyLuv, MsQ? Ya'll tell me what I missed. Until then, the bus leaves at 7:00 am. Rock on, LuNacy.

I have seen nothing of this new fic. (Although I loved what you wrote in the 11/19 chat transcript SO much it's my new sig line.) Where is it posted, Pookie? I need love and inspiration for my couple, now that everyone's jumped ship... ETA: I'm online working...I'll have the Break Room open until about 2:15 Eastern if anybody is interested.

sorry I've been away for a while. Just very busy with no online time. I'm "promised" four hours online time tomorrow. We'll see. Anyway, I have not seen Thursday's or Friday's episodes yet, so I will reserve my judgement on them until I've seen them for myself. I am concerned that our two biggest LuNacy fans have walked away from the ship--that seems unfathomable to me. I don't know, ya'll. I just don't know. I don't want Tracy to go back to the "my man dumped me so now I'll devote all my energy and creativity to destroy him" mode. It's been done to death. I'd like to see something challenging and creative for Jane to play (which means, I'd like to see her on something besides a soap opera, I guess). Maybe I should write a play? I would write a play specifically for Jane Elliot and Dana Ivey. Of course, living in the armpit of hell, writing a play would do me (or them) absolutely no good at all. I guess I'll just...breathe...and let my depression take a break until I've seen the carnage for myself.

I'm depressed. Even LJ, which is fairly Tracy-friendly, had it's share of "HUH, ain't it funny that Monica tripped Tracy and Alice carried her off? Hyuk-hyuk!" I think I just want to pull away for a while, but I know I can't. Tracy's BREAKDOWN is next week, and frankly, I can't turn away. I'm so annoyed with this show. You guys know how I get. Just remind me that this too shall pass, and we can reminesce about Jane's glory while they trash our poor Tracy into the ground. *Hugs Tracy for all she's worth -- $15 million+*

Wow. Where is everybody? Has shell-shock set in? I know I'm pretty depressed, because wow--we got Luke telling Tracy he loved her and Tracy admitting she has feelings for him all in the space of one week. We should be jumping from the rooftops. Instead, we feel beaten. I don't even feel like writing fanfic. Well, I do, but I don't think it's the kind you guys would want to read. Thoughts? Are we okay here?

I obviously had a better day than all of you guys. Why? I didn't watch it. I just watched the LuNacy scenes at the beginning, then said pish to it. Spent quality time with my baby, had a nice dinner, and fast-forwarded to the end of the tape to do tomorrow's shows. Not watching, not listening, not thinking LALALALALAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Actually, I will watch the show this weekend when I have more time, but all the things I've read have encouraged me not to hurry. I'm still mad at Monica and Alan for having no compassion at all for Tracy. And Dillon Hornsby is no longer on Santa's Nice list. He's getting coal till he's 90.

Breakroom, anyone?

Stay away from the SZ Watching Live Post. It's not safe for our kind.... *sending out Tracy Love to all who need it.* *thinks we ALL need it today* *KICKS LUKE, EDWARD, MONICA, ALICE, and DILLON (who should so freakin' know better)* Sigh.

To those on this board who are Luke&Laura fans, let me just say I truly hope today's episode is a wonderful, wonderful reaffirmation of a relationship that has made the history books. While I don't (and never did) understand the allure of L&L, I cannot deny that their pairing MADE General Hospital. I respect its place in our cultural history, and don't deny that many, many people will always think of L&L as THE soap couple for all time. OTOH, to my fellow LuNacy fans. *deep breath* Be brave, campers. Just keep thinking--this is screen time for JE. No matter how much they humiliate Tracy today, JE's going to rock it. She's going to bring so much depth and pathos and tragedy to the scenes she has that nobody is going to hate her. Even if they play it strictly for laughs, I trust in Jane and her ability to show more than the script ever thought of giving us. She knows her character (putting on an old pair of slippers, is how she described playing Tracy), knows her history, and she won't disappoint us. That's my story, and I'm sticking with it. Also, just for safety's sake, we might want to steer clear of Soapzone today. That place can be brutal. *sigh* You know what REALLY irks me? I was really hoping for more Laura/Tracy interaction. I didn't want Tracy tormenting her, or spilling the beans, or anything like that. I just wanted them to interact. I wanted Tracy to talk to the woman she's feared for a year and a half, the woman she will probably fear on some level for as long as she's with Luke. But no. Not gonna happen.

Nice try, chica. Don't think that fic being posted relieves you of your posting duties. Nu-UHHHH. Waaaayyy OT: Fey and I bought "One Life, Many Voices," the Hurricane Katrina relief project Robin Strasser put together (starring OLTL actors). I've been fighting the cliche of it, but I'm lost now. I'm am completely smitten with Kathy Briers, who plays Marcie on OLTL. I fought it, cuz I didn't just want to like the token cute fat chick. But the beyotch has some pipes on her, and her two songs on the project have totally bowled me over. The girl who plays Roxie also has a kick-butt voice, and Erika Slezak and Robin Strasser do some wonderfully entertaining spoken-word numbers. I wish GH would do something like this--I'd love to have Jane and Tony do a dramatic/comic reading together---something that really showed off their vocal talents. (Don't know if either of them sings.)

Check out the Jane-Elliot.com multimedia section: Tracey has uploaded a scene with Ned and Tracy having dinner together. It's before her marriage to Paul, and it's tragic and hilarious altogether. (Poor Tracy. Why can't she be joyful and hilarious, just once in a while?) She looks gorgeous, and her laugh at the end of the scene is just -- LeSigh! Hella Good has yesterday's clips posted. Please remember to comment when taking. I will post more on the show when I have a chance, but today is our "early" day and I must be off. Yeah--she looked GORGEOUS. Mid-Morning Edit: Well, I watched the show yesterday. And judging from the comments I've read and the chat transcript, I think I'm the only person in the universe right now who WASN'T upset by yesterday's show. I thought it was excellent--even the Jason/Sam scenes didn't annoy me that much (although I hate Spinelli. Could we delve even deeper into the realm of stereotypes, guys?) Anyway, about Luke and Tracy. I believe he was telling the truth when he said ILY. Period. No doubt in my mind. He's not playing her. In fact, Tracy is the only person in this whole deal who he's being even remotely honest with. I also believe, in my heart of hearts, that he's lying when he says he brought Laura back for the children. He's lying to himself, and he's lying through his teeth. Tracy is right to be hurt and upset and doubt him. Even though he loves Tracy (yeah, he does), he is lying to himself if he thinks he's over Laura. He's not. It's going to blow up in his face. I believe, to the core of my being, that this has been building up for a long time. Since the Monkey Fever storyline, Luke and Tracy have been flirting around these feelings--aided and abetted fully by Tony and Jane. The writers have played them hot and cold, but the actors always play them honestly. There is emotion there that no script can hide, because the actors are putting it there. Have I mentioned loving Tony and Jane? To the argument, how can Luke say he loved her when he runs off, puts her in bed with Robert, chases after Holly, blah blah blah? Okay, here's the deal, boys and girls. Auntie MinervaFan's Lesson For Dealing with Geminis. Do not ever, under any circumstances, assume that the Gemini is in touch with his/her own feelings. The stronger the emotions, the greater the chance that your resident Gemini is COMPLETELY oblivious to them. Do not ever, under any circumstances, assume that being oblivious to your emotions makes you immune to them. To the contrary, the more oblivious one is to his/her emotions, the more they will be ruled by them and the more out of control they will feel. Geminis do not like to be trapped. A Gemini will run awy from committment, especially if it's a committment they feel guilty about accepting. Now. Luke loves Laura. Duh. Of course he does. The earth is a ball, magnetic north is still up, and the Beatles are never gonna get back together. Get used to it, the L/L love is a fact of life. However, Laura is a rutabaga and will never come back to him. Luke marries Tracy. Luke likes Tracy. Luke finds himself attracted to Tracy, realizes he's been attracted to her for a long time, realizes she's more than he ever expected her to be, that she's got more heart and tenderness and compassion than her press releases will ever admit to. Luke realizes this is no one night stand, that Tracy is not a woman who will accept half-way once they have come together. Life throws them a curve--life keeps pushing them together. In the hospital, at the memorial service, after Lulu's A-word. Every time he feels close to her, he panics, he feels guilty, he doesn't want to fall in love with her, he doesn't want to admit that Laura is not coming back. He runs. He chases Holly, whom he knows is using him, whom he knows will never want a permanent thing with him. He used to love Holly, but he knows in his heart that Holly will never be more than a fling now. Then Laura returns. Luke feels guilty. He loves them both. He hates hurting Tracy, but cannot bear to hurt Laura. He wants to make things right, so he lies and he lies and he keeps getting in over his head. He is a man who is about to lose the love of his life, as well as a woman he has come to love. It's been said so many times over the summer that you can't ignore it: Luke thinks Tracy will always be there for him. Luke found out when Laura came back that Tracy will NOT always be there for him. He could lose her. And that forced him to see his emotions (damned stupid emotions--we Geminis hate them) for what they are. He is JUSt realizing (not admitting, but REALIZING) that he loves Tracy, has loved her for a long time. He is wracked with guilt, exhausted from the lies, and so in over his head he fears he may never see daylight again. He is so in deep doo-doo, and it's just going to get worse. But in the end, I believe that he and Tracy will find their way back to each other. I do. And Lainey, if you're reading this, please go on vacation more often. We've had KILLER TQ episodes since you've been gone. We miss you, but do it for the team.

NEW FIC UP AT THE FICATHON Title: This Fragile Shell Fandom: General Hospital Characters: Tracy Quartermaine, Laura Spencer Ficathon: No Word Count: 2,775 words Rating: Gen Summary: Future!Fic: Tracy visits a former rival. Author's Notes: This fic was written as a birthday gift for Regency. Like Regency, I like Tracy. I also like Laura. I will not make enemies of them. Happy Birthday, Rege! (Mine's June 4th, hint, hint!) URL: http://community.livejournal.com/tq_ficathon/54609.html

WARNING - DANGER WILL ROBINSON - Stay AWAY from the SZ Live Post. Much, much, MUCH LuNacy/Tracy bashing. SPOILER.... He said IT today. ILY. And the LnL fans are going ballistic. Luke is dead--it's mostly against him, but there's no love lost for Tracy there right now. I can't wait to go home and watch this. oh, and NEX, you get a story for the clip. Send me a bunny, I'll write you a story.