Thursday June 7th, 2007

Lily teases me for keeping a blog, but oh well. What doesn't she give me a hard time about? If she didn't, she wouldn't be the Lily that I know and love.

I'm back. I get so frustrated nowadays. It seems that everyone in my family has more issues than a newspaper.

Meg has this "great" plan to foil Craig once and for all. She thinks that if she's able to finally get the company back, she can just drop Craig the next day and everything will go back to normal. And everyone who knows Craig Montgomery knows that there's no worse Craig than a Craig scorned. I just have this gut feeling that the only way this whole thing is going to end is on a bad note.

Then, there's Mama. She's hardly around anymore and I can't say I blame her. With my bum cousin Brad back in town, Carly fighting for her kids and Jack & Katie practically humping each other everywhere they go, I doubt that I'd be wanting to hang around much anymore. And then there's the situation with Meg. I don't think Mama wants to even realize what's going on. I think she wants so stay out of the loop, because if she knows, then that'll just make her that much more disappointed in Meg.

And lastly, there's Lily and Faith. Lily's been great. That stint in rehab did just the trick, but sometimes I think Lily's trying to right a wrong that can't be righted. She's trying to make up for what all she did with Lucinda and the company. She's trying to make it up to Faith that Faith feels the way she does because she saw Lily going through the same exact thing. I try and tell Faith that she's beautiful like she is, and I try to persuade Lily to not try so hard, so fast...but it's like they never hear me. I can say nothing to make them change their minds.

I just feel like I'm at the end of my rope. I just feel like I'm invisible half the time. And when I try and talk sense into Meg, it goes out one ear and out the other. When I try and talk to Lily and Faith, they accuse me of just saying what I'm saying because I'm their father or husband, and it's my supposed job to say what I usually tell them. And Jack...I haven't had that much time to talk to him lately, but I just get the feeling that he's using Katie to help hypnotize himself into believing that he's over Carly. But everyone in this town knows that the truth is...Jack never stopped and never will stop having feelings for Carly. I know. I've been where he is before. I've been in his shoes.

Well, at least I have Aaron. Sometimes, I'm thankful that he's off somewhere and not having to sit around Oakdale and deal with all the drama. I seriously don't think he could handle all of it..being back and all. It's just too much to ask of someone..for them to come home to a life they left behind, only to find that the way things were when they left has totally changed...most of the time, for the worse.

Well, I guess that's all. I have to to get ready. Faith and I are going to see a movie. I think it's a great idea for us to just get away for a while, just walk in with a big bag of popcorn and forget all the drama and all the turmoil that's going on before our very eyes back home.

'Til next time,

Holden