June 26, 1990.

January 8, 1991.

April 30, 1991.

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January 1, 1992 and May 14, 1991 Digest recaps.

Also from the May 14 91 issue.

not sure I'm capable of being the same kind of mother, who will always be there for my child, meaning I'll always be home. And I feel guilty about that. In the days of our moms, there weren't many options. Nowadays, it's okay to have a career, but is it okay for the kids? I guess I want to be the greatest mother ever and I worry that I might not be."

For now, Colleen is concentrating on being the best actress she can be, and, in the scheme of her career, she recognizes that that means dealing with fans. "I'm not too into being recognized, because I'm a real private person," says Colleen, slowly. "Maybe violently so. And I don't ever want to sacrifice that. By the same token, I never think people should be too big for their fans, or the people who've supported them. I also get uneasy when I feel that people admire me because i'm on TV. I want to say, 'Hey, what do you do? You're a welder? A carpenter? A banker? That's great. I don't do that.' I'm not special because what i do is noticeable. It's all great if people admire it, but family and friends who know you before help keep that in check. My brother and sisters are happy for me, but you know what? I'm still Colleen who got on their nerves when they were younger, and that ain't going to slide because I'm on a soap."

Colleen admits she has noticed the steady paycheck, but insists that little about her life has changed. She bought a new VCR so that she can scrutinize her scenes at night, and has finally been able to move into her own place, something that she's always desperately wanted. As for the future, there's nothing desperate about it. Colleen has a clear-eyed view of the life she has chosen. "I don't think, 'Oh my gosh, I'd better save money for when I leave the show.' I don't think that way because that time will come. When I entered the profession, I knew that i would not work consistently from the day I started. But I'm not necessarily into stability. It's kind of fun. That uncertainty. Not knowing."

Also from this issue.

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December 20, 1983 Digest recap.

SOD sort of kind of covers Loving's 1989 Christmas party.

March 20, 1990 Digest recap. Sorry for the duplicate - the one I deleted was June 12, not August 7.

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June 12, 1990 Digest.

An early May 1990 Digest recap and a December 10, 1991 Digest recap.

These are a bit patchwork, so if I'm wrong please let me know. February 20, 1990, early May 1990, June 25, 1991, August 6, 1991 Digest recap.

This must be a mid/late March or early April 1990 Digest recap.

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January 10, 1989 Digest.

May 2, 1989 Digest.

June 27, 1989 Digest.

November 27, 1990.

September 1, 1992 Digest.