I Just Need Tons of Prayers

[Sweet_VeeVee24]

As some of you know, I have been going through an uphill battle with depression for quite some time...Unfortunately, things don't really seem to be getting better for me; rather, they continue to go through a downward spiral...As much as I try to hold on; with going to counseling and taking medications, nothing really seems to help...Talking doesn't help; and swallowing pills day after day no longer help.

As of two weeks ago, I stopped taking all forms of anti-depressant medications, and I have stopped going to any therapy sessions. I know that this isn't the best option, but I don't really know what else to do.... I really don't know what else I can do....so, right now, I'm at a stand still.

I honestly don't know how folks with depression can get their lives back in order; I'm at a place where I really want to be close to friends, but the fear of ruining things just makes me pull away and grow angry.

Right now, I guess all I can ask for is tons of prayers...I just wanted to tell those who do know me that I won't be online much and to know why.

[KLN]

I'll definitely pray for you... and I rarely pray.

I'm sure that the last thing you want to hear right now is "I know exactly how you feel." Because everyone's set of circumstances is different. But I've battled depression off and on for my entire life. Sometimes it gets so hard that just to wake up and get in the shower to wash my hair is too physically and mentally draining. So I have some idea of how you feel.

It's amazing how many people suffer with depression, too. Some suffer worse than others, I think. But I'd say 8 out of every 10 people in America are battling it, and 6 out of every 10 are on medication for it. It's everywhere, and misery loves company... so just know that you're not alone.

There's also two types of depression, I think. One is the chemical imbalance. The other is situational. If your depression is caused by a situation or something in your life that's happening currently, I don't think a pill will help... because it's situational, and not chemical. Although, I have heard that after a while, situational depression can develop into chemical depression. So who knows.

I hope things get better for you.

[JER Soaps Fan]

I'll pray for you, Sweet. Don't know the situation but I've been depressed in certain environments and I know how it affected me, over time. It's no picnic, figuratively speaking. I hope things get better.

[KBT]

I hate to hear that SweetNYGal! In general I am just a very happy guy and always have been, so I havent exactly experienced what you are going through. But I hate to see others sad, even total strangers. I will definitely pray for you and just hope you try your best to hang on and pull through. I promise you there are others out there that care deeply for you and would be devastated if you were no longer around. If you ever just need to vent or chat you can always PM me. When I need help in life praying has always helped me through in my time of need. Best of luck to you!

[Ryan]

You know I'll be here for you if you need me

[R!ck]

Venus, I'm here as well if you need to talk.

I hope things get better soon. *Hugs*

[Tishy]

Everyone is different, everyone has different types of depression. I don't know you very well, but from what I have seen here, you have a strong support system here. When I was spirialing out of control and I had this black pit in my stomach and cried all the time, I reached out finally to someone who helped me get the care I needed. I will never be 100% cured for my depression, but I have built up my support system. Anytime you want to vent or just talk, I am just a PM away. Please check your PMs because I am going to follow up with a PM. Take care

[crc]

Vee, if I could, I'd give you a huge hug and lots of love right now. I'm going to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that things get better for you. I might not be able to know the pain that you are going through, but I most certainly can empathize with you. I'm not good with words but I'll try my best to offer you some encouraging words: We have to believe, know that there's a light at the end of the tunnel and I know that you are a very special, sweet person and by the grace of God and with a heart that's as huge as yours, one that is meant to spread love throughout this world that we all share, there is hope and a way through this and I pray that you find it.

Remember, even when others aren't around to help you when things get dark, that He's always there by your side to help guide you to the light.

[Marilyn_M]

I'm so sorry V. I'll be praying for you. I'm always here if you need to talk.

[PMac]

I'm sorry to hear that you're having such a rough time. I hope you know that I consider you a good friend, and I also hope you know you can count on me if you ever want to talk. I know you're a very spiritual person, so please keep in mind that God has a purpose and place for each of us; otherwise, we wouldn't be here. You'll continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. You keep praying too - I know sometimes it must feel like it doesn't really help, but believe me, it does.

[kelli_blue]

I'm so sorry things aren't so great for you right now Sweet. I've suffered from depression on and off since

my teens and there have been many lows, but it does always seems to get better.....I hope things get better

for you soon.

Big Cyber (((((((HUGS))))))) to you.

[ILoveTracyQ]

You got it !

Lots of prayers, coming right up !

[Meredith]

One of my sisters was diagnosed. There are websites and message boards you can go to that are specifically designed for depression. A lot of people help themselves instead of going to a psych. It depends how bad it is and how long you've had it. If it seems to be severe or permanent then you prolly need to see a professional. JMO

[Sweet_VeeVee24]

Right now, I'm just trying my best to not get frustrated that I can't overcome some of the problems that I have been having....When you haave folks always telling you that you don't matter, don't count, or aren't worth caring for, it becomes hard to overcome, and for me, having to deal with a lot of problems, it's hard for me to shake it off.

I've been battling this since 2002...thought I was fine, only to fall apart by 2005...So thank you for all the encouragements and thoughtful words..it was very nice.

[Q Steph]

I sent you a private message. I hope you got it.