BKuzak

I just wanted to say that even though my home is Llanview, I "visit" Pine Valley a lot over the past 17 years. I just want to say that wheither you are for All My Children, OLTL or both, we are all united right now. We are all just one big group of fans. For some of us, it's not just loosing a soap, it's like loosing a second home with family we spent decades learning about and depending on every day. our lives will never be the same. I do like the other soaps but i don't care about them nearly as much as i did with my ABC family. I consider characters on both shows family.

I just can not even comprehend my feelings right now. I'm numb. I thank god OLTL isn't leaving until January but I still just can not even process that i won't be seeing my Viki Banks ever again after nine months! It's not fair! Betweeen Elizabeth taylor, a death in my personal family and now this, this year is begining to suck! I've looked at my Viki as a very close personal family member for so many years.

I guess the only way to really deal with it (After a night of a lot of alcohol), is to be greatful that "somewhere out there" Viki is going to stay alive so even though i won't be able to see her, i'll know she's still out there somewhere guiding me from afar, like all the years she went on her summer vacations. and beleive me it's not much comfort right now.

Lets take the example of people who lost Another World, As the World Turns and Guiding Light. I hope we can eventually live by their examples and find away to cope and eventually move on. I don't know if i ever fully will but thankfully i have nine months to process this. And beleive me i'll need it. All true OLTL fans will. (and AMC of course.)