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They indeed run deep, so do other things like... homophobia... that thing that is making the comeback of the century (some would say it never left for a second and they would be right!). Kamala would have prevented that to an extend. She would have kept these people at check. She would have fought for our rights and freedoms. But guess what, these days it's starting to become a new normal for me to be stared at with disgust or even hear comments when my husband dares to hold my hand. This is something new for us to experience, but it's also new that the country (Germany) is having an unprecedented re-activation of all kinds of hate, mostly propaganda by one very toxic party. Come and visit and you'll feel it too. These past few years everything's been going downhill. And guess what... now psychotic German media and far-right crazies are acting like this is the proof of how they were right about everything... And I fear they are going to continue manipulating people till they achieve the same result here. They are going to keep giving USA as an example to push their narative. I am not sure if my marriage will be legal in couple of years... maybe one day it will not. I don't want to be too negative or paranoid... but NOTHING will surprise me anymore. Millions of people. Millions... picked dictatorship over democracy. A convicted criminal over a black woman that WORKS to save us from these kinds of people. No... they want a dictator! If they wanted a dictator so much, why didn't they migrate to Russia? Is it so freaking hard? They would have taken them with open arms... They would have felt amazing there! I'm so f-cking done. Even though I swore to myself that I was not going to drink alcohol, I went to the 24/7 liquor corner and bought a huge bottle of some cheap ass martini drink. I plan to numb the pain as much as I can.

Am I the only one that gets an error and not a message?

So you want something bad to replace something bad? Why? Is there a logic behind your thinking?

Correction. I think I will have to disconnect from the whole web. This has been such a hardcore devastation to my psyche and I feel like if I continue... Even posting about it, I'll spiral into some kind of stomach ulcer or worse. I want to send a huge hug to everyone that feels alone, broken and disappointed like me today. You are not alone. Do whatever you need to do to recover and keep your head up high. I will never ever NOT be grateful to the amazing Kamala Harris. This is it for me for now. Have a great night everyone. Take care and be strong.

Ain't that the truth! I am going to do this from today on. Complete disconnect.

At this point... I lack trust too. They better not touch our BTG. This will freaking devastate me if they ruin this too somehow because of what happened.

And you are right. The platform is toxic, dangerous and shouldn't be promoted in any way or form. They are feeding from people's engagement. And right now... It's a Maga cesspool. I've never had an active profile. Never will. Thank you so much for this. I teared up reading it. And you also have my biggest support and empathy. We have to get through this somehow. All of us.

I was thinking the same thing today...

I guess that's the end of my dream of having a family with my husband (we are a gay married couple). I'm not creating a kid in this world, in the condition that it is. Lately I've been telling him to wait and that I'm leaning towards No, because I don't want to create a life in a world that I don't find myself free and happy and safe. And seeing what is happening in Germany, with the far-right crazies becoming more and more popular and bold... and this tops it OFF. Maybe that was the end for the dream for us too.

Sheila had quite a long story in 2024... Months and months. I don't want to spoil anything for you. Just watch. It was horribly written, but she was front and centre for months.

That Maga disgusting far-right Musk owned platform should be forbidden.

Then this makes me even more repulsed.

I'M crying right now. Have lump feeling in my throat. I need to take a pause from browsing, but I can't. I'm waiting for my husband to come home and just... take care of everything till I piece myself together.

And they gave Kamala Harris so little time... it was amazing what she SUCCEEDED in this amount of time. It was so not fair... HOW it all happened. She DESERVED a lot more TIME.

I'm not only shocked... and disgusted... and horrified... but I'm also mourning the dream of what could have and should have been. This is the hardest. Every time I glimpse a photo of Kamala, I tear up. People let that amazing woman down. My heart is freaking breaking. I didn't know so many people in USA wanted a dictator and to live in a version of Russia.

I've been hearing random fireworks outside... here in Germany today... and it's disturbing as hell to me. I can't imagine what you guys must be feeling in the States right now. It's like some kind of a horror movie.

This.

In my birth country... phobists and maniacs are already cheering and saying - Bye bye to the gender this and that and woke this and that. They feel like they've won and that from this moment on they can parade with their homophobia and hatred. And they will. They will. I am not even going to be visiting my birth country from this moment on, maybe only If I have to for some reason. And all my relatives are there... my parents. They will all close their eyes like they always do and not react or if I say something... respond to me how this is USA and it will not affect us. Oh... IT WILL and it already is. They were all waiting for this. These vultures are around the world! God... just imagine what can happen with the war in Ukraine when Trump gets to power. That's when I start panicking and my heart rate goes up. This has potential to evolve into a catastrophe for humanity. And... just to remind us all... this is a person who jokes with Global warming like it's not a real thing. I hope I wake up in couple of hours and all of this is just a dream... and Harris won.

I didn't expect this to break my heart like it did. I can't stop thinking of how IT SHOULD have been and what could have happened if the right one was chosen. I'm having trouble accepting that I woke up to this. Maybe it's time to tune out of the web, so I don't annoy anyone with how I'm feeling. It's worse enough. For the people who voted for him - you've now got yourselves a CRIMINAL in charge!

I know... that all of you gave your all and fought for this TO NOT happen. And I am saluting you. You are my glimpse of hope in this wicked world.

Me screaming in the shower... is not at all undermining how bad it is for the people in USA right now. I am a human being, a married gay man... and I am truly horrified what will be happening in my country as a wave after this. It's also not difficult for me to understand - I know how people operate and human psyche... It's not difficult for me to understand (people have done this time and time again through the centuries sadly), but it's horrifying to BELIEVE that it's happening right now. And with this one again. I'm sick to my stomach.

I am going to scream. Hard. I am going to take a shower... And scream. This can't be happening.

I'm going on an internet and social media strike after today. I'll only use my laptop for work. I can't deal and read about this election anymore. I can't. I'm done. I don't want to see psychopaths being happy that they won. I don't want to deal with their bull. Emotionally destroyed. Done.

This is a nightmare. Like a literal nightmare. Even though I'm not living in the USA, I know what this will lead to. It will strengthen the homophobia and the far right mania that's arising around the world. My birth country just months ago accepted an anti LGBT law that forbids people to talk about being gay in schools. In 2024!!!! It made all kinds of gender and sexual orientation expression... Punishable. I was counting on Harris winning... In my last hope that Europe will not be turning back to misery and hatred... Now even in Germany... I'm scared. I'm scared what the whole world is going to turn into. I'm scared that with time I'm going to lose my freedom and my rights too. We have far right winning here too lately and they are really disturbing me. Maybe some day me and my husband will not be allowed to even have a marriage anymore. I don't know, but if this is allowed... This criminal to become the USA president... Then I don't know what else is going to happen in this wicked world. I can't even post anything anymore. My heart is skipping and going arhytmic from all the stress. I am disgusted beyond belief. I am not working today... I will barely function. God help us all.

I'm at this stage as well. Can't even drink water right now. I have work tomorrow and I may call in sick. The waiting is driving me nuts.