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I think I have an ulcer because I always have a stomachache, and I have been stressing myself out a lot this semester. Plus, last night I took an aspirin, and it really hurt my stomach. So I don't know what I want to do about it because I'm sure that it's not too serious, but if it gets worse, I might have to go to the doctor's.

Tomorrow I find out about Gold Key. I'm really nervous...more nervous than I should be. I'm sure that I didn't get in because it was way too competitive, and I'm trying to prepare myself for it. But at the same time, I don't think that I'm going to be able to handle it. I'm not good with rejection, which is why I usually don't do this kind of stuff. So now I'm not sure when I should get my mail (because I have to check it!). Maybe I should just check in the morning, and then I'll be upset for the rest of the day, but I guess I'll manage. I have my oral presentation in Spanish, so I can't check before then because then I won't be in the right state of mind to do my presentation. And I know that I'll be too nervous to wait until 2.

Ugh...sometimes I hate doing this to myself.