Maybe it could be the fact that I have a mild hangover, but I've been thinking about my father alot today. He and I don't have a great relationship and haven't had one for years. A friend of mine heard a song called "Confessions of a Broken Heart" by Lindsay Lohan and sent it to me. I could totally connect with the words. Anyways, I thought I'd post the lyrics to the song (which were edited to reflect me being the son)

I'm sure there are many people who can relate to this song on many levels. Sure my father isn't in prison/jail, but he's still not here with me, and though I choose not to have a close personal relationship with him, I still wish things could be different. He chose his then girlfriend (now wife) and her children over me many times when I lived with him, he has no one to blame for alienating me but himself. He wasn't the same father who I knew growing up, and I blame him for that. He missed a lot becauses of his stupidity. My first touchdown in high school, my first drama production, my sophmore formal, junior and senior prom, and my graduation (though he was invited, but I didn't want him to bring his wife, he refused to come w/o her so I told him that's his loss.) and so many other things. So I feel bad about not reaching out more? Not really. I don't know him anymore. I am tired of reaching out and getting nothing in return. Maybe I should record my own version of this with my band and send my dad a copy.