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The Guiding Light: Episode 089

Friday, February 8, 2008

Written By: Josh Hawkins


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And Now..."The Guiding Light"



Holly sat her coffee cup down by the morning copy of “The Journal” and continued to listen as an eager junior reporter tried for the fourth time in less than fifteen minutes to get permission to run the Shayne Lewis story.

“Listen to me, Tracy, again. I have known Josh and Reva Lewis for well over twenty years. I am not about to print a story that will cause them any additional grief just yet.”

She listened again as the reporter, pleaded with Holly for the okay. “It’s not going to happen Tracy, not yet anyway. I promise you that after I talk with the Lewis’ then we’ll run the story…” more talking from the reporter. “Well that has yet to be decided. Good-bye Tracy.”

Holly closed her cell phone and for some reason her mind jolted back to the night of the rainstorm…

Like the rain beating down on the windshield, Holly’s tears fell down her face. “This has got to stop.” She told herself and in sheer desperation she slammed on the brakes and screamed out at the top of her lungs. “I have to save myself!”

Ed finally managed to spot her car, “Oh God what are you doing?” He threw the car into park and raced to the driver side window. “Holly you open this door!” It was locked and she turned her head away from him and screamed out.

“I told you to leave me alone!”

She picked up her cell phone and scrolled down the address book to a listing for “Ed Bauer.”

After a few rings the voice mail answered, “Hello you’ve reached Dr. Ed Bauer, please leave a detailed message and I’ll return your call. Thank you.”

“Ed, hi it’s Holly. You’re probably at hospital…I was just sitting here going through some pictures and other things…I thought I would call you and see how you were doing. Anyway, I would like to talk to you sometime soon…I know that I said we were finished and that I didn’t want to talk to you again, but well…I would like to sometime soon. So give me a call. Okay, bye.”


“If your father sees you here Phillip…”

“He’ll what?” Phillip cut her off. “What Alexandra? He’ll call security have me escorted off the premises. I’m not afraid of him, not anymore.”

“That’s fine, don’t be afraid. But I am, he’s my brother Phillip and he very well could have another heart attack if he gets worked up like he did that night at the mansion.”

“Please, a heart attack?” Phillip mocked. “That man doesn’t have a heart Alex. I thought you of all people would know that by now.” He tossed some personal items into a box and looked around his desk, “Besides I’m not going to be here that long. Ava left some files and other personal effects of mine here when she cleaned out my office.”

“What type of files?”

Phillip grinned shyly, “I see that got your attention. There just files from clients that I brought to Spaulding over the years. They’ve promised their loyalties to me, if and when I ever left the company

She slammed the door behind her, “Phillip those are property of Spaulding Enterprises, there was a reason you didn’t receive them when Ava cleaned out your office.”

“And what part of you thinks that I give damn Alexandra? I worked incredibly hard getting these clients to sign with the company. Moreover, don’t you stand here in what used to be my office and lecture me about principles. Mind you, while you were off parading around Europe ignoring this company some of us were here, running it.”

“A job that you were rewarded for quite nicely if I do recall,” Alexandra snapped back. “Don’t use my time away from Springfield against me. I don’t deserve that.”

“And I don’t deserve to be treated like an heir to the throne one day and a bastard the next!”

Alexandra fell into a chair in front of Phillip’s desk. “I am so sorry that you feel that way. I’m sure it was never Alan’s intention to make you feel like that…”

“When are you going to stop defending him Alex? After all that he has done to everyone he claims to love,” he listed, “Alan-Michael, Olivia, you. Not to mention the ones he doesn’t even care about.”

“Don’t you bring Gus into this fight. He has no place in it,” Alexandra told him under no certain terms. “You can take the damn files Phillip. You can leave here and go into business for yourself, with Lewis Construction, with anyone you want, I don’t give a damn. What I do give a damn about is this family whether you want to believe it or not! And I want to know one thing, I want to hear it from your lips, right here and right now. Just the two of us…is she worth it? Is Olivia Spencer worth all the hell she is putting us through?”

“Alex, let’s not do this again. I don’t think I have it in me to continuously defend her…”

“I understand that. I really do. I just need to hear it from you, Phillip. I need to her that Olivia is worth all that you are giving up. You’re father, Lizzie’s not talking to you and you ending a marriage with a woman you have loved your entire adult life. How is it possible Olivia is worth all of that? How?”


“I love Beth in a way that no one and that includes you and Lillian, will ever understand. Our love is complicated and old. We’re not in love with one another like we once were.”

“Then why did you marry her?”

“It was a means to an end,” Phillip fell into his chair. “I know how awful that sounds, I really do. But it’s true. There’s something about Olivia that causes my heart to spark again like it used to with Beth, I come alive when she’s around, when I hear her name, when I think about her. I love her with such entensity that words don’t even come close to describing it.”

“And what about Alan and Lizzie?”

“Alan sat this plan into motion, he tested my feelings for Olivia and her’s for me. In some twisted, sick way he brought us together instead of driving us apart. He has to deal with that, not me. And as for Lizzie, well it won’t be the first time she hasn’t spoken to me and I’m sure it won’t be the last. She’s not a child anymore Aunt Alex, she has to understand that this is the real world.”

Alex walked behind the desk and slid her ams down Phillip’s shoulders. She sighed heavily before speaking, “I was afraid of this.”


“Don’t what me…you love that…that…woman…” she said with hostility in her voice. “I worry about you. You and Alan-Michael…Nick and Gus…” she smiled. “You are all my children in so many different ways and I care about each one of you. And there are times when I think you don’t even know how much I care, it’s why I insert myself into every situation that you all are going through.”

“We know how much you care, well I do at least.”

“Well I’m sure glad that you do.” She kissed the top of his head, “You better get out of here before Alan shows up. I can’t go another round with him, not yet anyway.”

“I have a few more things to pack and then I’ll go.”

Alexandra shook her head. “I love you very much Phillip. And for what it’s worth I do hope that Olivia has your best interests at heart or you know who she’ll answer to.”


An hour had past since Holly had made the phone call to Ed and he hadn’t replied. Holly looked at the coffee table were old newspapers, letters, cards and an assortment of pictures of Roger in various stages of his life. She almost had the entire box packed away when the knock on the front door came.

“Ben, come in…” Holly kissed him on the cheek, “I haven’t heard from you in weeks.”

“I know, ever since I canceled our dinner date.”

“Yeah.” Holly took his coat, “I tried to call you a couple of times but always got your voicemail. I hope that Alexandra isn’t working you too hard over at Spaulding. You know if she is I can talk to her, get her to slack off a bit,” she smiled.

“Little hard work never hurt anyone,” Ben smiled and noticed the pictures. “What’s all of that?”

“That is memories of a life I sometimes want to forget, but just never seem able to,” Holly replied. “Roger.”

“Oh…I’m sorry,” Ben stood up from the sofa, “I should have called before I just showed up unannounced.”

Holly shook her head, “You’re fine. You can come by anytime, day or night unannounced. I’ve had these things out since Roger died. I think it’s just time I put them away.” She put the lid on one of the boxes. “I just made some coffee would you like some?”


Holly poured him a cup from the kitchen, “You know there was something that you wanted to talk about awhile back. I’m so sorry that I just always seemed to miss you. Between the paper, therapy and Blake’s wedding I just never seemed able to find the time.” She handed him a cup, “Black, right?”

Ben shook his head. “How are you doing? How have you been doing? Winter seems to keep dragging on lately and that groundhog…” he smiled, “You’re doing okay?”

“I see you’ve been talking to Blake. I don’t want you to feel like you have to check up on me or even worry about me Ben.”

“I worry because I care and yes I do talk to Blake. We try to have lunch about once every week or so.”

“That’s nice,” Holly smiled. “But I’m doing very well this year. I think I have my SAD under control.”

Ben shook his head, “That’s good to hear.” He sat his cup down on the table. “I normally wouldn’t want to bother you with things that are going on in my life, but…well…you’re the only person I have here in town. You’re like a mother to me in so many ways…”

“I want you to feel that way Ben. I think of you as one of my own children. I have ever since your father and I were married.” Holly took his hand in hers, “Sweetheart, if you’re going through something that you can’t handle by yourself, then please tell me. Let me help you.”


Ben rubbed his face with his free hand and swallowed hard, “About three months ago a doctor Chicago diagnosed me with Stage One testicular cancer.”

“Oh..” Holly covered her mouth and then immediately took Ben in her arms. “Are they sure?” Ben shook his head. “And you’ve had a second opinion, right?”

“A second and a third,” Ben answered. “The doctor in Chicago referred me to a specialist in Houston and then she referred me to one in New York City. They’ve all said it was cancer.”

“Oh Ben, honey. I wish you had come to me earlier than this. I would have gone with you to those visits.” She kissed his forehead. “Have you told anyone else? Blake or Marina?” Holly paused for a moment, “You’re father?”

He shook his head no. “I wanted to tell you first because of course I need to tell him what’s going on, but there’s more to it than that. Each of the doctors has told me to find out if my biological father has any history of this in his family.” Ben took her hand, “I need you to go with me to visit with my Dad, I can’t do this alone and Marina she can’t find out, not yet anyway.”

Holly shook her head, “Of course. Anything you need Ben, I’ll do it.” She said aloud, but in her mind, the mere thought of seeing Fletcher again caused her to panic. Nevertheless, she knew now, more than ever that she was needed, no matter what the price was she had to pay, she was needed!


“Excuse me, I’m looking for someone with the Lewis family,” Danny asked at the nurses station.

A nurse pointed across the room and spoke softly, “Mrs. Lewis is over there.”

Reva sat with her head propped up by her hand, half-asleep when Danny knelt down beside her. “Reva…”

She bolted awake, “What?” rubbing her face she questioned. “Oh Danny, hello.”

“Hi. I brought you some coffee,” he handed her a stryofoam cup. “It’s from the cafeteria but I figured anything is better than nothing, right?”

She shook her head. “How did you know? Please don’t tell me it’s in the papers.”

“No, Billy called me last night. He thought that Marah might need some company. Is she here?”

“She’s back with Shayne,” Reva answered. “You know that’s very nice of you to come down, Marah will appreciate that. I appreciate it, thank you.”

“Of course,” he replied. “Has there been any change?”

“No…” she answered softly, empty almost. “Rick and Mel stablized him last night. He fell into a coma…they said that was normal because of the shook that his body is going through he needs this time to heal…” Reva shook her head. “They think he may have swelling around his brain or even bleeding, they’re just not sure yet.”

“Do the police have any idea how this happened?”

“No…and that Danny is the part that just pisses me off the most, you know? He was attacked for some unknown reason, why?” She shook her head. “And then to make matters even worse I can’t get ahold of Josh and no one knows where Ed is at.”


Danny had taken the seat next to her and put his arm around her, “Is there anything that I can do to help? I will call in specialist from wherever, anything you need Reva.”

“Thank you very much. That means quite a lot to me, more than you know actually. But I think the only thing you can do right now is go see my daughter. Let her know you’re here.”

“Okay…” Danny stood up.

“It’s room um, four. You can go on back if you want.” Reva watched him take a few steps and then spoke, “Danny…”



“I know that Marah hurt you when she left after Grace was born, but you have to know how sorry she is. You have to know that she loves you so much and that she is complicated, stubborn, hard-headed and at times headstrong. There’s a reason for that, you know, she’s a Shayne woman. Believe me when I tell you this and Josh can confirm if you doubt me, but Shayne women are not easy to love. We’re good woman, but the men who loves us, they’re great men. It takes a mighty fine man to love us and I think that you could be that man for my daughter.” Reva smiled again, “That’s all.”

“Thank you Reva.”


Alexandra and Alan-Michael finished a phone conference with the New York offices and were having idle chat before parting company. Alexandra told her nephew that she didn’t notice Lucy at breakfast this morning and he tells her that she spent the night at the Beacon. Alexandra rubbed her temple and Alan-Michael noted her uneasiness.

“You want to talk about what’s bothering you?”

“Do you want to hear about it?” she retorted.

“I’m sure that I can take an educated guess as to what it has to do with,” he replied. “Dad and Phillip.”

She shook her head, “And don’t forget about your step-mother, Olivia.” Alex covered her entire face to avoid crying in A-M’s presence. “I’m sorry…I just hate this so much.”

“Aunt Alex don’t hold back,” A-M told her. “Whatever you have bottled up in there, let it out. Come on, I’ll be your sounding board.”

She drew in a deep breath to calm her nerves. “The family’s divided with Alan and Phillip at war again over her. Gus, well he doesn’t want any part of our world. He keeps retreating further and further back, shutting me out at every turn. I went to such great lengths to keep him from learning the truth, for his own benefit. You know how screwed up this family is, I never meant to hurt him Alan-Michael or anyone for that matter.”

“But you did Alex,” he told her. “You hurt a lot of people, including my wife and Harley.”

“And I’m very sorry for that…” she spoke as the words dawned on her for the first time since all of this had started...”Oh Alan-Michael, I never told Lucy how sorry I was for all the pain I put her through…”


“She knows your sorry Alex. Telling her would be a good start to rebuilding some relationships that you’ve had a hand in wrecking.” Alex shook her head in agreement. “Can I give you some advice?”

“Of course. Please.”

“You care about all of us, the entire family almost to a fault. You know I’m right. You’re not a patient woman, but you’re loving and you’re a good mother and a good mother figure to both Phillip and I.”

“Thank you,” she mouthed.

“Eventually, in someway or another, Gus is going to come around and see what the rest of us, that loving and kind woman who has been there for us countless times. He’ll eventually see you as his mother, but you have to wait now. Let him do it on his own time table.”

Alexandra leaned over to kiss A-M on the cheek and suddenly heard Alan yelling in the hallways. “What is going on…”

She threw open her office doors to see Phillip and Alan engrossed in a screaming match.

“STOP IT!” she demanded. “Phillip! Alan!” she wiggled her way in between the two of them.

“What part of you’re no longer employed here do you not understand Phillip?” Alan shouted.

“Oh go to hell Alan!” he shouted back at him.

“That is enough…” Alexandra said ruthlessly. She grabbed Alan’s coat and dragged him into her office, “Alan-Michael bring your brother in here, right now!”

She slammed the door and seethed with anger! “What in God’s holy name are the two of you thinking? I don’t give a damn if the two of you want to tear each other to shreds at the house, but at this place, in this building and in this office you will act like the civilized human beings that I know you are!” she glared at Alan with a rage he had never seen before in her eyes. “You are the Chief Executive Officer of this company and you are acting like a school yard bully. And if you think that I am going to let you act as such, it will only be over my dead body.” She spun around and pointed at Phillip, “And you…what part of leave before your father arrives do you not understand?”


“I am not his father…” Alan said full of anger.

“Alan Spaulding! One more word out of your mouth and I swear I will slap you so hard across your face that you will feel the pain come next Tuesday!”

“Alexandra…” Phillip attempted to reason, “I’ll go.”

She shook her head, “Oh no. You stayed and you caused this. After the conversation, we just had and you stayed. I tried Phillip, I tried to understand where you were coming from, I tried to understand why you love this woman…” she looked at Alan, “I tried to understand why you both loved her so strongly, but I cannot understand. Both of you, both of you claim to love this gold-digging bitch so much…”

“Step lightly Alex,” Phillip warned.


“You both claim to love this woman so much, that you are allowing her to come in here and rip apart this family that we have spent decades upon decades building. And I know, oh God, do I know that we are not perfect, but we are a family and within one year, one year…Olivia has hooked her claws into us and pulled us apart…look around…look at the two acting like two horny teenagers…you’ve allowed this woman to do this.” She ran her fingers through her hair as three of them stood in silence. “You two are self destructing before my very eyes and it makes me sick to watch. Maybe Olivia destroying this family was for the best, because we only love one another, we only need one another when it’s easy for ourselves. I’m guilty of it just as much as all three of you are.”

She threw open the door of her office, “So go ahead, destroy one another. I have my own problems to worry about, my own issues to deal with and I can’t deal with anymore of yours. She stopped in the doorway. “Some people in this family have stood by you both,” she spoke to Alan and Phillip, “perhaps even at times when neither of you deserved it. But, when she needed you to stand by her, when I needed your support the most, there was only one person willing to offer me support and compassion. Yell, scream, kick, holler, I don’t give a damn. But do somewhere else, because right know this company is the only thing that is keeping me sane.” She paused for a moment, “The two of you should be ashamed of yourselves.”

:Fade to Black:


Next on "The Guiding Light"

- Cassie gets a surprising shock!

- Reva confronts Josh!



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I loved Alex's speech.

Sweet moments between Holly and Ben!

I don't know much about Danny and Marah but I like it so far.

Keep up the good work! :)

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