what a relief

Okay, so I didn't get in. And I guess I'm a little upset about it, but I'm pretty much fine with it. I'm not even that disappointed. So I'm really proud of myself because this is the first time that I did something that I kind of knew I wouldn't get into, and I didn't freak out about it. I just read the letter and threw it out. There are plenty of better opportunities out there, like being a HONS or SAA, which requires a more personal connection with new students. Hopefully I'll get a position there. There are 4 openings, and since I don't care which one I get, I think my chances are very good. Plus, if I don't get in, I'll apply for a job as a senator or class rep.

And everyone's saying how I should reapply next year, but I don't think I'm going to. I'll just be really bitter about it, and be like, "Well, you didn't let me in last year", which isn't cool.

Is it wrong to actually be happy about this? I know that I'm a little upset, but overall I don't feel that bad about it. I guess it's good then. And now I'll be able to sleep in on Sunday.

I have my oral presentation in a half hour. ugh. It's only three minutes, and I made a nice poster. Plus, I'm rather confident about what I'm presenting on, but I get really nervous and I'm afraid I'll black out on stuff. Umm...my Spanish sucks too, which isn't very helpful.

I think from now on, I'm going to keep everything anonymous. Like, I guess I'm fine being a mediocre student here. It's not like this is an easy school, and being average actually isn't average, right?? But I hate being around people who seem perfect all the time. I think I should just give myself a break. Tonight I'm just doing History reading (which I enjoy, so it's not that bad) and then the stupid post for Women's Studies.

Ciao!

-Rachel